I should have known better

So.  I am sad to share that there will be no more babies for me.  I knew that this would be the case once I even whispered any mention of another baby, but I did not realize how sad I would be about it.  I am more than thrilled with the four I have, but I did start to dream a little about number five, a boy named Quinn.  Perhaps he is meant for one of you and I will get to simply play with your babies when they come.  I am wistfully sad about letting this go, but I am not facing much of a choice it would seem.  It's a strange thing to know that you can have a baby, and even to want one, but no longer have the option.  I thought age would be that determining factor.  Guess not.